I have a confession to make.
- Sometimes I feel like I’m losing my goddamn mind and I am not at all in control of the situation.
This happens most often when my anxiety takes over and I begin to lose my sense of security. Oftentimes, when I am feeling anxious to the point of crying, I bury myself in my work to cope. The next thing I know, I’m working from dawn until dusk and feeling like an insane person. It’s difficult when you are attached to a computer all day, because your brain really starts to run wild. That’s why, I’ve decided to start studying some strict boundaries for myself when it comes to my work day. Namely, when I feel the central cooling system kick into gear I know that it’s time to quit for the night. You see, these days I’m the only person who’s working from home and using the central heating and cooling system. My husband returned to his office a few weeks ago, leaving me here with the central HVAC system and an empty house. Rather than operating the large heating and cooling system all day long, I have been turning the thermostat settings up so that the air conditioning unit barely works all day. If the indoor air starts to feel stagnant, I will turn on an overhead fan to increase the circulation. Otherwise, I’m fine working without powerful air conditioning blasting away. As soon as my husband gets home, however, he immediately goes to the thermostat and turns down the indoor air temperature. Whenever ice cold air is streaming from the vents overhead, I know that it must be about 7pm. That’s when I quit my job for the day and finally take a chill pill.