Recently I have been doing a lot of inner work.
Since I can’t go anywhere while in the pandemic plus I am sleepy of worrying about my house responsibilities, I have dived even farther into my own mental landscape.
In short, I have been learning a lot about meditation plus manifestation. I have to say, I never thought that I would be capable of meditating for longer than a few seconds at a time. My brain has such intrusive thoughts that it seemed like a long shot to keep it quiet for even one moment at a time. These afternoons, but, I worked my way up to meditating for as long as 10 minutes at a time. I have to say, I feel like I am more mentally strong… But I might be getting more physically ill now that I have gotten so present. Before, I was more than gleeful to put on blinders plus ignore certain things. When meditating, but, suddenly, I am aware of exactly how disgusting my central heating plus cooling system is. You see, part of my meditation practice is sitting in complete silence plus noticing my breath. This would be easier if my central cooling system wasn’t chugging away in the background. The sounds coming from my AC units are fairly concerning when you do not have other noises polluting the hums plus bangs of the cooling system. Furthermore, I am suddenly extremely conscious of the disgusting smell circulating through my air vents. I used to think that I did a good task changing my air filters for the central Heating, Ventilation, plus A/C system, however now I am doubting the cleanliness of my air duct. Every time I sit down to meditate, I have to argument back intrusive thoughts about calling the professional Heating, Ventilation, plus A/C dealership to instantly have my air conditioner overhauled plus my air duct scrubbed.